don't expect perfection

You know, you say that you didn't know me long enough, to know that I was "drama queen", but you haven't known her long enough, to see her bad side either. Everyone has good and bad in them, its if, how and when you choose to see it. You have to take the good with the bad, its all or nothing, love it for who it is, not what it isn't. Don't expect perfection, your believing a lie. No ones perfect, and I was just another girl to prove that to you, but you can keep trying to find the right one, there will never be someone as perfect as you want them to be, sometimes its okay to settle for less.

lifes a bitch

Sometimes, when I go to sleep at night, I don't want to wake up in the morning. Dreaming is what I wait for because its the only time when reality isn't true, and I can escape this world. There was a time in my life, when I can say that I was truly happy, but now that time has passed, and like everyone else, I have to move on. I don't understand how time goes on so quickly, yet I'm still where I was 3 years ago. I'm holding onto my best memories, because I guess its the only thing that doesn't change. Its funny how people change when they walk away from something, like it never even mattered, or like it never happened. I've learned, that most people aren't as happy as they make themselves out to be, they just aren't as open and honest about it as I am. I'm not an "attention seeker", I just don't care to pretend. I'm not a "drama queen", I'm just emotional. Its not the mistakes we make that make us a good or bad person, its how we choose to learn from them that determines what type of person we are. You know, some people don't even have the luxury of complaining, but that won't stop us, every day without care, we always have something to complain about. We are all hypocrites. Lifes a bitch, haha. I've been through a lot, but I'm still standing, I'm hurt, and I'm not okay, but I know I will be, I'm honestly over complaining.

it will be okay; hopefully

To Amanda from morgan:

hopefully everything will work out, hopefully it works out in the best way possible, in the best way that it can so we can be the best people WE can.

so we can once again be happy, back to where we were free and in love, where waking up to the that one person we truly loved would be the best thing in the world.


the ocassional one or two boys may come along but in the end who is it you see, who is it you dream of? its that boy you always had from the start, the only one that can make these and all of your problems seek through the cracks and go away.


in the meanwhile waiting is the hardest part, and the easiest seems to never come, but its out there hiding, like you said love hides and until it comes out you and me have to show them, show love, show eveyone we are waiting, waiting without any doubt. just remember be strong as will i.

I love you amanda


To morgan from amanda:

It's going to be okay, it's going to be okay,
take my hand and breathe with me, and listen to my song, it's going to be okay.
Trust me babey girl and dream, remember nothing is what it seems.
Soon everything will be okay, even though now he has nothing to say.
When it all falls down together, remember you've still got forever.
i love you morgannnnnnnnn

beauty from pain

You don't know me. One mistake means nothing, its how i choose to fix it, or learn from it that really matters. Why regret, you can't change the past. Why plan, they never work out anyways. Why complain if your not going to do anything about it, your problems will soon become a mute to the ears around you. If all your going to say is "i wish", "i hate", "i love", shutup, i don't want to hear it. Everyone gets hurt, at least once and a while, some more so than others, but i guess thats just a part of life, and a part of being in love. We all hurt, some hide it, some cry it, some tell it, some show it, me, i write it, i dance it, i sing it. I know all this is worth it, all the tears, all the heart break, all the pain. What doesn't kill me, will only make me stronger. After all this has passed, and i've cried my last, there will be beauty from pain.

Help yourself

I hate the way they all look at life, intent of destroying their own. This world is falling apart, and no one even cares to do anything about it. Girls complain about their bodies, yet don't do anything about it. They all roam around complaining they are too "restricted", yet when they get their freedom, they wish that someone cared. Girls steal each others boyfriends, guys play girls. The teenagers of today, forget purpose, meaning and cause. They do things for the thrill, adrenanline, experience, not worrying about tomorrows consequences. Hopefully it will hit you one day, that you can't get away with everything, and someday you'll have to admit your wrong. If you ever expect to live a happy life, you have to earn it. You can't sit around, dreaming of the perfect life, if you never expect to help yourself.

teenage world

I straighten my hair, i wear makeup, but I'm not fake. I bitch about people when they've done something wrong to upset me, but I'm not a bitch. I have had a tone of boyfriends, but I'm not a slut. Jokes turn into lies, thoughts turn into rumors, laughter turns into tears, love turns into hate, admiration turns into envy, friends turn into enemies. Sex becomes a hobby, alcohol becomes a friend, and drugs become our life. The teenage world is such a dangerous and confusing place. Supposed to set an example your leading the next generation into everyone's wrost nightmare.

Our generation now, no one wants to run the country, we all want to live in a free world, with no rules, and no expectations. But a world like that would surely be destroyed. No one understands the meaning of responsibility, and thats why there are so many rules to obide by. But it seems the more rules, the more rebelious teenagers feel a need to disobey those rules and cause havock.

Ridiculous.