lifes a bitch

Sometimes, when I go to sleep at night, I don't want to wake up in the morning. Dreaming is what I wait for because its the only time when reality isn't true, and I can escape this world. There was a time in my life, when I can say that I was truly happy, but now that time has passed, and like everyone else, I have to move on. I don't understand how time goes on so quickly, yet I'm still where I was 3 years ago. I'm holding onto my best memories, because I guess its the only thing that doesn't change. Its funny how people change when they walk away from something, like it never even mattered, or like it never happened. I've learned, that most people aren't as happy as they make themselves out to be, they just aren't as open and honest about it as I am. I'm not an "attention seeker", I just don't care to pretend. I'm not a "drama queen", I'm just emotional. Its not the mistakes we make that make us a good or bad person, its how we choose to learn from them that determines what type of person we are. You know, some people don't even have the luxury of complaining, but that won't stop us, every day without care, we always have something to complain about. We are all hypocrites. Lifes a bitch, haha. I've been through a lot, but I'm still standing, I'm hurt, and I'm not okay, but I know I will be, I'm honestly over complaining.